Small New (Past)
I saw someone new
It was sort of romantic
Not sure I wanted it to be.
- A positive experience, certainly
- A new friend
- new experiences
- life enriched
- body sated
And yet, conflicted.
- She was very different
- that’s for sure
- Less aware of her sentances
- Less than me, instead of more
- Is this how it always felt for her?
- Less connected, in words and touch
- Today, body more intense
- movements more lustful
- but missing the passion
- the closeness
- the love?
- And the rest didn’t make up.
- I shouldn’t have expected such
- two years against minutes and hours
- if I had, I could have known
but of course, not
- She texts me now,
- a few hours later
I am missed, in character and body I can’t say I feel the same, yet
- How do I compare
- Unripe grapes to aged wine?
- An impossible test to pass
- bar to clear
But she’s still in my life
still a maybe
And every moment is made into a test. ◼︎