Small New

I’m seeing someone soon
Not quite romantically, not yet
Don’t think this will ever be

I need to know

how this feels

how this changes things

Will I miss her

more or less?

This isn’t new

shouldn’t be

done this before

But, now I won’t share everything

with her

Better? Worse?
More lonely? Less?

I might miss her voice

her shape, her spirit

her heart with mine

That I can’t do different
That I can’t have those again
Or, I might not.

I don’t know which I’d prefer. ◼︎