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In The Middle (Not Like That)

erin

Everything’s weird right now
In flux
What do I want?
I need to know.
But I don’t.

Everything’s so unknowable
In flux
Choices, but no outcomes
So different, it all feels the same
Does it even matter?
It must.

Evyerhting’s so difficult
I want to talk
But I can’t.
I need to know first
But I don’t
I want to decide
But I don’t know
I need to know, with conviction
But I don’t.

I do nothing
But, that’s still a decision

So I’m stuck.


Everyone says it will be ok
They are probably right
“you’re young”
Yes but
what if?
what if not?
Betting a lot on a maybe.
It will probably be ok
But
what if not?
So much joy!
change fun love
life beauty growth
time memories
happiness, together
But
Kids
Mornings
Sex
Depression
Balance
Could it work?
Maybe
Should it?
I need to know. ◼︎